hahaha, oh no, i just realised everything here is like insanely depressive, but i assure you thats only one tiny portion of my life.

didnt go to school today cus i wasnt feeling well, haha sort of glad to have a day off and think about my own things and get some work done. as well as sleep too(:

there are quite a few things to be thankful for, such as FOA which was really just the most wonderful thing that ever happened this year, and like the people that have been so encouraging and lovely these few wks that ive been super stressed <3 i loveeee you guys(:

hmm i havent watched inception yet, and i dont think i'll have the time to being that ioc's coming up in about 2 weeks! :O the horror.

well last week was fun and stressful and wonderful and touching and retarded, and tiring and just every possible range of emotion squished into 7 days, with saturday as peak happiness. im so glad and honoured to have shared the stage with so many other talented people, including our guest performers, teachers and conductors. i wish i could turn back time and perform all over again on saturday. it was crazy.

i love it(:

back to school, back to reality, back to studying and back to taking things more seriously now. back to you and back to me and no more excuses.

(:

i wonder what the trouble is. is it me, or what i said. is it you, or what you said. why does it feel like there is this weird empty gap of... nothingness right now.

i guess writing some of my problems here and not on my private-other-blog helps me feel like they will disappear. because i dont really visit this place that much anymore, and i also dont know anyone who actually reads this besides those that read the other too. when i blog here, it really does feel like im sending off my problems and thoughts in a hot air balloon. for them to float away.

today is supposed to be a good day, but i think reality's sinking in. while clarification came in the best and surest way, i myself am not thoroughly convinced.

i wish there were a deep black hole to suck all these weird thoughts out of my head. :/

ahhh i cant get down to studying ): i keep watching tv or sleeping and when i actually am studying im not motivated at all. sigh there is so much to do like geog p2 and math ): i am going to fail math sigh. and shit i just realised i dont have the new os for my gdc -.-

faaaaaaaaaaaack.

omg, so sleepy and i have geog tomorrow. urrrgh. eff-em-ellzz

eenie meenie mynie moe. make up your damn mind loser

youre the only light i see

haha, i think i love trashy songs. like first kiss, california girls, low and right round. hahah.

one day off tomorrow omg thank god! three days of exams drove me mad )):

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.